258.  When Loyalty Becomes Self-Betrayal

Loyalty Without Respect is Self-betrayal

I was recently reminded of this in a group experience that started with joy and commitment, but over time revealed poor communication, lack of care, and pressure instead of support. I stayed longer than I should have, not because it felt right, but because I didn’t want to let others down. I also have a strong principle of completing what I start, and I’m learning that this can sometimes make letting go more difficult.

 That’s when it became clear:

I wasn’t being loyal to a person or a purpose. I was being loyal to discomfort.

 

When loyalty turns unhealthy

  • Expectations keep changing after you commit

  •  Your boundaries are treated as inconveniences

  •  You feel guilt instead of growth

  •  You’re valued for compliance, not contribution

  •  You stay to avoid conflict, not because you feel supported

 At that point, loyalty isn’t strength. It’s fear wearing a respectable mask.

 

The hidden cost of “staying”

 Unquestioned loyalty can cost you: 

  •  Joy

  •  Energy

  •  Self-respect

Trust in your own instincts. I didn’t do that in my latest group experience, even though my body was clearly sending signals telling me not to go there.

On reflection, I also realised the longer you stay, the harder it becomes to leave because of sunk time, money, or emotional investment.

Here’s the reframe that matters: 

  • Past investment is not a reason to keep paying future costs.

  •  Leaving is not failure

  • Walking away from an unsupportive environment is not quitting.

  • It’s choosing alignment over endurance.

 

Sometimes the bravest decision isn’t to push through, it’s to say: 

“This no longer works for me.”

That decision doesn’t erase what you learned.

It doesn’t negate your effort.

It simply honours your growth and promotes self-respect.

 

A new definition of loyalty

 Healthy loyalty includes:

  • Clear communication

  • Care for people, not just outcomes

  • To feel that my time is respected

 If those are missing, loyalty is no longer virtuous - it’s expensive. Before you stay loyal to a person, group, or system, ask: 

“Am I staying because this nourishes me or because I’m afraid of disappointing others?” 

Your answer will tell you everything. Loyalty is powerful.

But self-loyalty comes first.

Olga Smith